WHAT SARAH SAID...
So um... Whoever said senior year was all puppies and sunshine, was a LIAR. Now, don't get me wrong, there is the occasional puppy and ray of sun.. but lately, there have been a lot of cloudy days and cats. (no one likes cats)
What they also don't let you in on, is that senior year goes by faster than any other year of your life. But you don't realize it until you sit down and look back on how much things have really changed in such a short amount of time. Until you realize that you only have a few months left. Until you realize that in just days, everything as you know it will be changed.
It's crazy how you can have the best time, and the worst time of you life, at the same time.
If I can tell y'all anything, it's that I have never been more stressed out in my life. At the same time, I have never been so calm. I have so much that I need to figure out, but I have absolutely ZERO motivation to get up and deal with any of it. The good news is, AP stats will be history in about 2 weeks, so hey, I got 99 problems but AP stats ain't one.
The bad news is, college applications are due soon, and I have no idea what I'm going to do. I have no idea where I'm going. I have no idea if I'll be going alone. Safe to say I'm a little bit rattled.
I don't want to decide what college to go to. I don't want to decide what I'm doing for the rest of my life. I don't want to decide if I'm going to go away, or stay with my best friend. I don't want everything to change. I don't want to grow up. I don't want to be an adult. I don't want to travel out into the unknown.
But ya know what.. I CAN'T CONTROL ANY OF THAT. Life happens. And whether I like it or not, I'm going to have to grow up. All I can say is, although senior year is soooo hard, and full of cloudy days and cats.. It's the best.
There are so many opportunities that have come into my life this year that I wouldn't change for anything.
1- COMMUNITY OF CARING
2- CIRCLE OF FRIENDS
3-FOOTBALL
4-SEMINARY
Let me just elaborate on each of those just a little bit.
At the start of the school year, the LAST thing I wanted to do was be in Community of Caring. I was so pissed when my counselor wouldn't let me out, but let me tell ya, BEST experience. I love love love service. And the best thing is, most of our service focuses on kids. #futureteacherswag
Circle of Friends is an organization for Deaf adults with multiple disabilities. What is better than being with them? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. #DeafPride
FOOTBALL. I can't even. I love football. I love being with those boys every day. As much as I hate being in the freezing cold, I wouldn't change it for the world. And I love all of those boys with my whole heart. And I don't care how weird any of you think that is. #EAGLES
Oh dear seminary... Y'all knew it was coming. I wasn't about to leave y'all without something spiritual. Come on, who do you think I am?! Haha. I... really have no idea how to explain how much I love this gospel. How much I love seminary. Ya know what.. I can be stressed out, having a bad day, whatever. The second I walk into that seminary building, all of my fears, stresses, anxieties, fade away. There is nothing I love more than being able to bear my testimony to a class of students where most of them are younger than me. The only thing greater than that, is the looks on their faces as I'm up there speaking. This gospel is true. It is for YOU. Learn of it for yourself. #usetheinterentforgood
It's 1 in the morning. I'm sitting in my best friend's basement typing this. I'm 99% sure she's asleep on the floor. Hahaha. She's a real gem.
I don't know what's gonna happen to us in the future. I don't know what's going to happen to me. I don't know what's going to happen to all of the friends I've made. All I know is that I am LOVING my life. And I can't control the future, but I can control how I react to what's going on around me right this second. Live in the now. Love who you are. Be yourself. Don't stress about things you can't control. When life gets too hard to stand, kneel. "There's a lot of happiness in the world, race out there and gather it".
I love you. I love senior year. I love my Savior and my Heavenly Father. I love each one of you.
"Come what may and love it"
CLASS OF 2014
EAGLE BORN, EAGLE BRED, EAGLE TILL THE DAY I'M DEAD
The Other One..
Alright kids, listen up. DO NOT grow up. I repeat, DO NOT GROW UP! You never truly think about it, but time flies faster than you will ever know.
Everyone's definition of senior year: parties every weekend, hanging out with friends every day, having the easiest classes of your life.. FALSE. Your expectations have been led astray..
Reality's definition of senior year: parties never actually happen. You hang out with your friends only on the weekends, because your life during the week is too hectic to have a social life. Easiest classes, my butt! Yeah, you may have your home release, but otherwise.. YOU'RE STILL STUCK AT SCHOOL.
Now, don't get me wrong.. Senior year has its perks. It has a lot of perks in fact.. Only if you act on opportunities that are presented to you.
OPPORTUNITY 1: COMMUNITY OF CARING.. Let me tell y'all a little something about this class. Don't try to drop out of it. Just don't. I thought I was going to be absolutely miserable in this class. I had heard nothing but negative thoughts towards this class, that my own thoughts had been tainted. You'll encounter service opportunities that will change your outlooks on life like you would never imagine. Here's a little tip for you.. If someone talks to you about Tennis and Tutoring, automatically say "YES". You will not regret it.
OPPORTUNITY 2: FOOTBALL.. If a football player tells you to be a water girl (aka team manager), just do it. Don't have any thoughts on why not.. Just. Do. It. That's another thing you will not regret. There's something about being able to bond with people you would never think you could be close with.
Opportunities are there to help you. They are there to move you forward in life. They make you change, for the better. They open your eyes to a whole world you had no idea existed.
A few things you should never forget..
1: never forget the people that impacted you. Whether they hurt you, or they were there to pick you up when you thought you had nothing left. Those are the people that will help you later on.
2: time flies a lot faster than you could ever imagine. One second its the first day of your sophomore year, then all of a sudden, you're sitting in a chair listening to representatives telling you why you should choose their college at College Day. Don't waste a minute. Live in the moment and have fun.
3: make good decisions. Don't screw up. You'll regret it later on. We all know you will. Make good decisions when it comes to friends and choosing classes. Make sure that when it comes time to decide something, it will benefit you in the long run..
Before I peace out, let me tell you one thing.. Live your life how YOU want to live it. Don't let others influence you negatively. Don't let others opinions override yours. Take everything that is thrown at you as a blessing. It may be good or it may be bad, but you know that He threw it at you because it will be beneficial to you in the end. Always remember that He will be there to help you through anything!
This isn't goodbye.. Just a "see you later". <3
xoxo, Sarah and Steph
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