HELLO HELLO! It's been like twelve years since I've posted anything. Sorry, sorry, sorry. I still love y'all, promise:)
SO... I am absolutely amazed by the Spirit. Really truly. Today in seminary, my teacher decided to change the devotional, and I kinda had a hunch that it was gonna be me.. AND IT WAS. Say whaaaaaat? Am I good, or am I good? Haha, no. Totally kidding. Sarah. Stay focused. So then she hands me my paper and I looked at it and I was like.. NAHHHHH. So, I completely changed what I was going to do my devotional on while we were singing the opening hymn. I mean.. I kind of had an idea of what I wanted to say, but not really. So, I go up there and I was like uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. So then I told everyone that I had just decided to change my devotional, I decided to talk about the importance of having a testimony. It's kinda been my favorite topic lately, so sorry if I sound like a broken record. So I got up there, and I read a quote from my favorite missionary Tyson Michael:) "If you don't have a strong testimony, get one. As soon as you possibly can. It is the strongest weapon we have in these latter days. And we need it more now than ever." HELLOOOOO PERFECT. Did you catch that there? Our TESTIMONIES are the STRONGEST weapons we have. One more time, just incase you're not grasping this, OUR TESTIMONIES ARE THE STRONGEST WEAPONS WE HAVE. And then I said a little somethin' somethin' about that, who knows. And then I read another quote from Jeffrey R. Holland. "Even if you can no more than desire to believe, let that desire burn in you." And from that point on.. I didn't say anything. Nope. I didn't. The Spirit COMPLETELY took over. I... I honestly can't remember what I said.
I mean, maybe it's just me, but that AMAZES ME. I was truly an instrument in God's hands today. He.. He's prepared me to be one. He's still preparing me. Every day. I.. I've gone through struggles, so that when I get up there, I can tell people that I know what it feels like to think this is all a bunch of bull. I know what it's like to feel alone. To feel like.. Like this isn't worth it. To feel like I don't fit in. To feel like this gospel isn't for me. To.. To feel like I don't need this gospel. I'm fine. I.. I really don't need it. I.. I don't feel the Spirit anyway, the church isn't doing anything for me.
I can also stand up there and say, hey, guess what. Let me tell you somethin'.. This gospel, the gospel of Jesus Christ, hey, this is REAL. This is IT. And I know this, because I've tested it. I've found out for myself. I know it. I've felt it. And.. and if you do ALL that you can, and you really, truly, sincerely try, and ask, you're gonna find out the same things I did. You're gonna find out that God is REAL. And He is YOURS. And you're gonna find out that your older brother Jesus Christ is your biggest supporter and fan. You're gonna find out that this gospel is true. I promise you that. Go ahead. Try it.
I, Sarah McBride, have a testimony. I have the strongest testimony that I have EVER had. I am the HAPPIEST I have ever been. I have a relationship with Christ, He is my BEST friend. I know that I am a daughter of God, who LOVES me. I've spent so long leaning on others' testimonies. Yeah, that sounds good. Yeah, I know what they're talking about. I.. I thought I had a strong testimony, until now when I look back at it. I.. Mostly I just reiterated what I had heard others say. Which is fine, to a certain point. The day's gonna come when you can't rely on anyone else anymore. The day's gonna come when YOU are going to need to know for yourself. It's not easy. It's not like one day you're just gonna wake up and be like I HAVE A TESTIMONY. Sorry, not how it works. It takes time, and patience, and work. WORK on your end. But let me tell you something right now, it the the BEST thing you will ever do. I've told y'all before that I seriously CANNOT go without reading the word of the Lord. And trust me, there are times I want to. Times I am SOOOO tired. Even if it's just a verse.. I have to read.
Like Tyson said, if you don't have a strong testimony, GET ONE. Even if it's just a little one. It is the absolute best thing that I have in my life. I.. I wouldn't trade if for ANYTHING. I loooooove this gospel. I am so grateful for it. It's the best thing in my life. It makes me really, truly, honestly, happy.
"Hold to the ground you have already won."--Jeffrey R. Holland
http://www.lds.org/general-conference/2013/04/lord-i-believe?lang=eng Watch this. Read this. Whatever. Love this talk. Love this man. Love this gospel. Love all of you!!
xoxo, Sarah
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